The demand for my services for the treatment of sexual addiction has grown over the past several years. Even with the increased frequency of phone contact, I do not think the pain I sense in the clients first call will ever lose its impact on my heart. For the person whose life has been plagued by secret shame and finally has the courage to make the call for help, the pain is palpable. For the spouse who has stumbled upon information of a secret life kept hidden by their partner and now questions the reality of an entire relationship, the level of pain has profound impact on this therapist.
"If you accept the pain, it cannot hurt you. The pain of making the necessary sacrifices always hurts more than you think it's going to. I know. It sucks. That being said, doing something seriously creative is one of the most amazing experiences one can have, in this or any other lifetime. If you can pull it off, it's worth it. Even if you don't end up pulling it off, you'll learn many incredible, magical, valuable things. It's NOT doing it when you know you full well you HAD the opportunity- that hurts FAR more than any failure."
- Hugh MacLeod
On my visit to San Diego, while attending the SASH conference, I took some time to be a tourist when the conference ended. My husband had a meeting at the same time close by so we made a rendezvous to enjoy some outdoor activities in the area. My wish for outdoor activities included cycling and sea lion watching. My husband was up for sea lions, but preferred to add ocean kayaking to the list of fun. With limited time we compromised by deciding on ocean kayaking that would include a trip by a peninsula that sea lions were known to inhabit.
"Fortune favors the bold." - Virgil
This past Thursday on NBC’s The Today Show Matt Lauer visited the Jungfrau Observatory in the Swiss Alps. In this segment he met up with legendary climbers who reach great heights. Specifically he focused on three climbers and their motivations, techniques, and focus used to climb the iconic north face of the Eiger Peak (elevation 13,000 feet). All three men had something to say that reminded me of the dangers of sex addiction and the sometimes unimaginable quest in reaching the summit of successful recovery.
First, the story of John Harlen, the first American to climb the steep and craggy north face of the Eiger tells the tale of obsession, motivation, and the quest for redemption. Four years after solidifying his place in history as the first American to climb the north face, Harlen died taking a more direct route up in 1962. Sex addiction is a diesease of incresing escalating behaviors. Some may die in the quest for even greater new heights.